Growing Up

I've been thinking about this topic for a while now, mostly because I will be graduated in a year in a half and I am constantly being reminded about "growing up" by my family. I have came to the realization that I WILL BE GRADUATING IN A YEAR IN A HALF, and I am 100% dependent on my mom, I feel mentally I am still 15 years old, I have a very immature personality, I cant cook to save my life! I do not pay any kind of bills, I've never had a job, oh and let me remind you..I will be gone and on my own in a year in a half~ moving my way into adult hood. I will be away from my mom, family, and comfort zone. I am not sure if I am going straight to Seoul, or to college, but all I know is that I need to grow up fast. My mom has no problem with me getting money from her, or staying and living with her and I think that's the problem. If my mom don't make me leave, then I wont, because I'm just so close to her and my siblings. I honestly couldn't imagine not living with them, but I know its going to happen soon. That's why I think it is best for me to move to Seoul or to go to college out of state. I feel that if I do that, I would be forced to grow up, to be independent, to cook for myself, etc. And why I feel like its best to move to Seoul is because:
1. I have always been so in love with South Korea, I have never been so in love with a country before. 
2. I feel that I would fit in more in Korea just by how I dress, music wise, personality, EVERYTHING! 
3. I would have to learn a complete different language, and adapt to a new culture. I'm sure at first it would be uncomfortable, but If I'm comfortable then I'm not learning.

Why I feel like I should go to a college out of state:
1. New scenery, and new people, new everything.
2. NEW START

If you guys are unsure on what you want to do, dont be scared! It's competely normal. Just go with the flow and what ever happens, happens. 

Although my mom is everything to me, and I'll miss her like crazy, I know where I want to be. There are lots of dreams I want to achieve, and I know I cant do them living with my mommy my whole life. I know at first I'll be really sad, but once I start achieving my dreams, I wont have any regrets. 

-Minah<3